Here we go

as-salaamu `alaykom
Okay, so alhamdulillah ive decided to start posting on here again,
now that everyone has forgotten about it, lol.
I deleted everything off of this blog back in Oct.
So i will be starting fresh! inshaAllaah this blog actually lasts more than a month.
Im not good with blogs..


So to start, random facts..

I confess that..

-I am obsessed with strawberry ice cream, and ice water

-I have a hard time hurting or disappointing people even if its the right thing to do, i get confused a lot and rarely do whats right

-i try to make everyone else happy which leaves me rather empty

-I front a lot and im not nearly as strong as i pretend that i am

-I am always cold, yet i cant leave my window closed, i loveeeee fresh air

-I am full of mistakes and my best intentions even go crazy wrong

-I wish i was a better muslimeh, and i do try..

-I miss people so much it hurts

-I daydream about being in J amongst the mujahideen, on a daily basis, i also daydream about getting married (lol even though i dont want to get married)

-I am bi-polar, manic depressant, and usually refuse to take the medication

- I hate raw onions but love cooked ones, hate olives but love olive oil, i love tomatos in everythinggg even plain, i loveee avocado with salt or in anything but not guacamole, I love orange juice but i love apple juice more, but apple juice makes me sooo hyper that am bouncing off the walls

-Ive never eaten Biryaani. There is someone who keeps promising it to me.. but has yet to fulfill that promise

-I am scared that i will not make it to Jennah

-I always feel very lonely

-I am always smiling and cheerful when i interact with people (in reality), and tend to make people feel very comfortable

-My favorite brother is Jalal, and my favorite sister is Lena

-There is nothing good about me

- Im severely anemic, and i am usually very weak

- I loveeee cooking, its like.. one of my passions

-I am young, yet i feel like im 60 years old and have lived my life, and in need of a martyrdom

-There are some sisters that i think are very cool, but im too shy to say because we are not good friends like that

-I love brown skinned people

-I used to want to have 27 babies