Falasteen

So i was talking to my baba and basically he wants me to go to falasteen for a month, maybe for february, and then come back with him here to US, and stay until the end of next summer.. then go to falasteen for good.
I really want to go for february because i miss it there so much, i just love it subhanAllaah, but then again im not sure i want to go.. i think about the last time i went, back in august, and how disappointed i was, it just felt different than the last time i was there. Maybe because this time i realize how lost the peopel are. My cousins that are my age are all ignorant about deen, and into stupid western things. There was only 2 that i actually related to, and i spent my time with the really old women, reading Quran a lot. Which is good, but..
Anyway, am having mixed emotions about this now. Half of me wants to go, and half of me does not.
And there is the whole issue of "what if they dont let me come back?." With the plans im trying to make (so far unsuccessfully), i cant afford to have anything shady pulled on me, and get stuck there..